I was placed on the urgent transplant list did i realise what true purpose and joy was. 

You're probably wondering.. How could you gain purpose when you're so close to death?

Well, It was at this point I realised my purpose was to survive.

I realised that focusing on the weeks/ months ahead wasn’t going to work for me.

My conditions were so sporadic, I couldn’t plan to save my life (quite literally).

So I started to focus on the day ahead of me. I would concentrate on getting up in the morning, eating enough food so I could take my tablets, trying to move my body, checking if I had any hospital appointments coming up, checking in on how my body was feeling and REALLY enjoying the little wins and happy moments through out the day.

I soon realised having a degree or a job to my name wasn't the thing that was going to give me true purpose. Perhaps It was more of an excuse or form of distraction I wanted to use to cover up the bigger issues in my life (I.e my chronic Illness).  

With a change in mindset and a change of my core habits I started to transform and rediscover joy, even with just months left to live.